Turn on 悲伤

在车上，在回宿舍的路上……
眼泪滑下…… 再滑下……
控制不了
也不想控制……
不明白……
也不去明白……
总总的为什么
现在也不懂怎么去为什么了……
伤心形容不了
心痛解释不了
悲伤描述不了
难过诠释不了
可惜挽回不了
绝望忍心不了…… 不了……
眼神、动作、谈吐、表情……
一针一针…… 一针又一针……
我没办法…… 真的没办法……
再看到、再面对、再看到、再面对！
你不知道
应该也不想知道……
当时鼓起那么大的勇气是为了什么
为了杂碎这段深厚友情吗？？……
我怎么可能…… 我怎么可能？？？！！！！！！！
我做了什么……
我不知道……

Turn on the emotion
Just turn it on
I can't stand for it anymore
Anymore......
It's so hard to be honest
It's wrong to be too honest
All I've done... what I've done???
Till now
I'm still couldn't understand......
Perhaps I did it wrong
Perhaps I did hurt you......
Perhaps I shouldn't tell you, that I did something wrong......
This is not my expectation after all
All I want is just to speak honestly about my thoughts
It's as simple as that......
Haih......
Perhaps I wasn't care about your feeling
Perhaps I was too confident to tell you the truth of me
Now, I'm in despair......
I don't want to be like this
I don't want YOU to be like this
I don't want to break it and I don't mean it.
I DON'T.
But, the way of you treating me...... now
You couldn't understand how hurt it is, how desperate my situation is......
......
It's better to turn off now. My feeling, my emotion.